My very first post on WordPress. I thought it would be nice to have some place to write and to vent. I also thought it would be nice to sit here and read what other have to say, and perhaps I won’t feel so alone in the world. I’ve been going through some issues and difficulties these past few weeks. It would be nice to escape from reality for a little while, and writing is the best way I can do that. I have found that writing is my escape. It is the only thing that makes me feel better.
It’s nice to know that I am not alone. I always have to remind myself that there are other people in the world feeling the same way I do, or that are going through the same things. Since I don’t really have any “friends”, sometimes I get lonely. I’ve been trying to deal with my issues the best way that I possibly can. I feel like sometimes I just need a break away from everything. As I’m writing this, I feel bad, because I don’t have a “hard” life. I don’t have a “tough” life… but just because I don’t have it horribly bad, does that mean I can’t complain every once in a while?- or feel bad about certain things?
I feel like I’m a bit out-of-place this moment in my life. I feel like I grew up too quickly, like I didn’t enjoy my teenage years thoroughly. I’m just so confused with everything. Am I on the right track? How do I know? Where I am right this second…. is this where I am supposed to be? I’m not one to sit and dwell and let it affect my life. But I just feel like it isn’t only that; its many other things in my life that I’m dealing with. Feeling all these emotions and feelings is so confusing. I sometimes feel like I’m going crazy. That’s the only way to put it. I’m naturally already an “emotional” person, and with all these changes in my life, and everything that has been going on; I guess just triggered something. Now I have all this anxiety and depression. Luckily, I’m feeling better… but I want to go back to how I was feeling before. I just want to be normal.
I just want to feel HAPPY.